mephisto

i'm writing this in english so you wouldn't understand. see, you're a really nice guy - overall you are - you work hard, you take care of your mother, you have dreams. but the thing is i don't think those dreams will have me in them. the way life has been for the past 2 years is... well it hasn't been good. how could i possible have a relationship with a person who cares so little for me. isn't that like the whole point of a relationship - to have someone to hold onto? someone who cares for you and someone who makes an effort. i get everything you've done, or lack thereof, but... it's just not enough for me. i want more, i need more. i feel like i have a reached a point in life where i have to let some things go and you are one of those things. i'm sorry for having mislead you, i'm sorry for the pain i will cause you, i'm sorry it didn't work out the way you hoped it would. but i can't say i didn't say so, because i did. remember that night under the powerlines? (corny and romantic, i know). i really am sorry, but i feel that i need to do this for my own good and eventually yours also.